sleepy... talkative

Have been working on my little baby ELE GANTE.. hopefully can launch on this Thursday...It's 4:37 in the morning. Tired? not really though...so excited to see the business is happening. Sometime I would think... what if blah blah blah?? what if there is a typing mistake that will mislead the customers? What if the price is too high? What if the picture are "too real"?Some of you know what I mean!

Oh I have too many "what if" and it just puts the fear in my heart. I have controlled my mind not to think negatively. What is my real thought at the moment? Seriously I want to just shut my computer and turn on the heater and go to bed. I insist and keep telling myself I have to finish the necklaces section before sleep.

Maybe I have not been talking much these few days that's why so many words. I imagine I'm talking to you right now. Yes! It's you! haha...Just talked to Elaine Wong tonite and as she said .. "soo many words!"...

One of my friend just told me that she has breast cancer. She just older than me one year..I love her as my sister and I absolutely admire her passion for life. She is a brave girl and I believe she is able to touch so many lives as she desires to!I want to use my abilities to just do something for the poor and the need. I want to build school and churches and houses for the need. YEAH.. I consider it's a really big thing but I know I can do it and God will show me His timing for it!!...Muuuahh!

There is a photo, me and a little chinese girl in friendster... I put there to remind the dream and passion in my heart! I want to serve them and bring God's love to them! I believe God will make a way for me. He is preparing me now.. I know... (I always pray that my husband will have the same heart and passion) I do not want to go alone but with my loved one... to support, to encourage, to serve, and to love one another...so that God's love can be witnessed between us. ...so sweet!

I wait patiently because I trust in you....

Thanks for all the calls and messages!!

Hay.. I'm doing well at home... took a picture of my knee and proved that I HAVE SEEN THE DOCTOR... finally! Had acupunture on my leg and I DONT LIKE IT!!!

At the moment I feel the pain is back becos i have been walking up and down in my house..naughty me! may be get too excited about the healing!!!

Thanks for all the love and care to me in these few days..being disable for few days...I miss iceskating.. seriously!! I tell you all, once I got my driving lisence and have enough money to buy a car.. I will take ice skating again. This is my dream to be a iceskater.. however, I have a lot of other dream I want to achieve too...


Susan, Mavis, Selina, Robert, Derek, Mic Thai, Keith, Jasmine, Ada, Mike.... thank you for showing me your love and care!!!


These few weeks have been working on my little baby ELE GANTE...hopefully can start to sell online by this thursday.


I have been singing this old old song....dont know how i knew that song. At first i just knew the OHOH YEAH YEAH TILL I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN SAY that part.. then i bought this song from itune.. playing and playing. I feel soo joyful when singing this song, espeically when noone is besides me, i can just dance with it...haha.(not at the moment!)...

Oh oh yeah yeah

I love you more than I can say

I love you twice as much tomorrow

I love you more than I can say

Oh oh yeah yeah l miss you every single day

Why must my life be filled with sorrow

I love you more than I can say

Dont you know I need you so

Tell me please I gotta know

Do you mean to make me cry

Am I just another guy

yeah. I love you more than I can say....can you feel it??? I did the test of love language and found out my love langauge is word affirmation...very true and very me.. I like to read and like to be touched by words.. letters, cards, sms, msn..I can remember all of them... the feeling of being loved and remembered...how sweet is it!!!

and my other love language is service.. (be my slave!!! MUUUAHAHHA)...I can feel your love to me when you help me to do something when I need...

So my friends.. speak to me and SERVE ME!..hahahah

I love the way God teaches us how to be the greatest in the world...that is to serve...to become a great leader.. you need to serve others, not others to serve you because you are a leader. I believe everyone is created to be a leader. You always have a role to lead in a specific moment...

for me whether I like it or not. Even I am not titled to be a leader.. I'm' still a leader.. for myself! I am the one to make the choice for myself ...in every part of your life, where to work, who to marry, what to do...etc However, the truth is i dont really trust myself becos I dont make a good choice...not saying that I have mental problem.. but.. I just know that I dont make a good choice.. but God himself does!! So happy to have someone who ca guide my life. I will never give this authority to other people but my Lord becose I trust Him.

THAT'S NOT MY BROTHER'S CAR

that's not my brother's car.. i wish i have one too....
ahhahaha

Mount Hotham

Mount Hotham

so cool to drive this car to mountain yeah!

Lunch and Dinner: Nutella and Tuna Pasta



Kawaii Tim...

I injured myself again... this time is my right knee. I dont really want to explain how it happened..It was my brother!!! When we about to take off from the lift, he made a joke and I was laughing, then...AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I FELL DOWN and heard a "twist" sound from my knee. I'M DONE!!!

Thanks Robert who helped me to adjust my snowboard and organised the trip! Everything was wonderful!...ahah.. there was a moment that I was soo scared on the mountain and panic if I could go down. I went to the black lane without knowing it!!!!what the....! I was sitting alone and struggling how to get down. I was really afraid....I told to myself "You are in trouble!" and yell to God for help!...you know what I did at the end? I just slided down...hahaa....^_^

Had a very refreshing moment upon the mountain...wondering and thanking God for a lot of things that God brought into my life. ...felt so close with God when I was hving my coffee and look at the mountain. ..I whispered in my heart saying God, thank you...thank you...I will never forget what you have done for me.

Tony's Birthday

Happy Birthday to you Tony!!!

just read all the journals in the past few years and realised how much i have changed...I did so many things that i should not do it that way or do a better way... the people I have met in my life...all grown up and pursuing their dream to do something that make them feel alive and worthy! How long should I chase after the wind? I will do it with all my heart...There is always a moment I will ask myself "What do I really want for me life?" yeah! Once I thought I have chosen the right thing for my life, however, time proves me wrong..ahaha.. so ridiculous! I don't really know myself well...

But God.. himself shows me He is worthy to trust...even though I still trying to know more about myself. He guides my thought and desire to the right path...it's that easy but unforgettable...every part of life becomes soo beautiful with your presence...I treasure every moment I have with you...You always hear what I say in my heart...

Missing Peri... hay! do you read my blog? i'm talking about you girl!!! take care and come back with a new Peri....love ya!

Family Fun day

Today went to help out at the Family Fun Day...so blessed to be part of it..and look at me, I had a face painting...it was Mavis started it and all the receptionists had it (except Peri!!!!hahah she doesn't like it)...Do I look like a rat? rabbit? or cat???...Meeeeooww!!!!! It's soo blessed to see the church worked together to try to bless the community.

God is faithful and I chose to stay with Him because He satisfies my heart. He teaching me how to love and forgive...and this is what I call- abundant life that He promised me!

Tim's 22nd Birthday

Hi all.. haven't been upateing my blog and I just want to tell you all that I have finished my course. The result will be out this from coming friday....nervous but I trust the Lord!

Now busy with ELE GANTE...a little baby still in my womb! I really thank God for my paretns who are fully support me. GIVE ALL THE GLORY TO MY LORD! I can't do things without His guidence and strength.

Last week we celebrated Tim's birthday, with my god brother Tony....

Today is gift

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is mystery
Today is gift

Don't hestitate to love because you never know what will happen tomorrow....

This is week 11 and I will finish my master course in 3 weeks. Look back in this 1 and half year, I smile because I am doing the will of God and completing soon....

What's next task? What's next destination? I 'm very excited about it and you know what... I want to do what God wants me to do. Even sometimes it's hard because of my little faith in Him, little confidence in myself.

Everything is possible through God. I know in my heart He is with me.

Tonite I went to Borader and saw this phase..."Life is not about finding yourself, but creating yourself". I stood there for a while and processed the phase....I 'm still thinking about it...

Feel free to give me comment. I would love to read it!

Again..remember God is faithful and His love is shown on the cross... Why don't you accept His love? What you still standing there and do nothing? Time is near my dear...As beliver, let me sing to Him and praise His goodness everyday.

I have seen His love...I have experienced His love and I'm living in His love...

The name - Jesus

THE NAME

ABBA FATHER

LIVING WATER

SHEPHERD SERVANT AND KING

MASTER TEACHER

LORD AND KEEPER

COUNSELOR PRINCE OF PEACE

­ALMIGHTY CREATOR

EMMANUEL SAVIOR

ADONAI AND THE ROCK

HOSANNA MESSIAH

YAHWEH JEHOVAH

ALPHA OMEGA GOD

FRIEND AND HEALER

CHRIST REDEEMER

GREAT IS YOUR GLORIOUS NAME

JESUS

THE NAME

One of my love song to my Lord

The Lord is my shepherd.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

When I saw this from image of shepherd from JuJu (hehe...i like to call you JuJu), I was just remined of Psalm 23 The Lord is my shepherd and I will fear no evil.

What a cute shepherd....heh! ^_^

Proud of you all!

Here is my committe I served with in OC... they all with great and amazing talents and characters..Great man and woman of faith!
I'm proud of you all//////Elaine. Eleanor, Ruth, Me, Corrz and Chew..
I will miss the time I worked with you all....I have learned so much from you all and thank you for all your patience and forgiveness of my mistakes.. I really hope we can work together again next year...hehe. I'm ready for it...you??

How can I forgot all these wondeful girls who helped selling T-shirts... with high level of attractiveness..heeh I thank you soo much for your help even caused you to miss some session...

I pray that you all will remmeber what God spoke to you in the camp and continue to serve him wholeheartedly. Commit all the burden to Him and let him transform you. Amen

I had a great time in the leader's advance. I have received a great encouragement from Ps Simon to start to prepare myself for the Prasie and Worship Ministry...I have been praying and asking God for allowing me to join in..haha... I'm soo soo happy to hear it's the time for me to prepare the new journey and to develop more skills.

I long to see how God will change my life to a greater level and to be more impactful to people around me.

I thank God.. again... He takes care of my family so that I will have less burden in my heart when I serve Him. I know everything will become good and amazing when I let Him to change me.. to change my family... I love you Lord for being my great friend and I will worship your name whenever I go. I will sing and sing and sing and sing....to prasie you name!

I feel I'm really changing at the moment...when I listen to what God telling me what to do and my faith has been increased. I only have one life to spend and I always remind myself that.... I ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE...DO SOMETHING WORTHY! Don't look at what you have in your hands only but turn your eyes upon Jesus and look at what He has prepared for you!

My friends...sit down and think... What do you want to do with you life? to make a big money? to be a legend? to be famous?...What do you really want? I asked this question in YoYo's cg... and let me sum up for you.. All you need is love! The love can refresh your spirit. The love can give you hope. The love can last forever...Find love in the right place otherwise you will get hurt easily.

God is love...Love never fails! A new year. A new start.

2007 Oceania Convetion

OC is just around the corner!!! Yeah....can't wait to meet all the brothers and sisters from different places.

Sorry for being too busy for you

.....
sometimes I would really want to sit down with you and have a cup of coffee and talk about how things going..pls do forgive me for the time I'm too busy for you...actually I want to say this to every of my friend...

just tried to meet up Lily but it was too difficult to find the common time...but thanks God that we all are busy for God...so happy to heart we serving the same Lord!

..haven't seen her for long time.. miss her...also Gloria in USA...

For my loved one I pray that God will keep our heart together.

His Perfect Love

The love of God is greater far

Than tongue or pen can ever tell;

It goes beyond the highest star,

And reaches to the lowest hell;

The guilty pair, bowed down with care,

God gave His Son to win

His erring child He reconciled

and pardoned from his sin

Refrain:

O love of God, how rich and pure!

How measureless and strong!

It shall forevermore endure

The saints' and angles' song

Could we with ink the ocean fill

And were the skies of parchment made

Were every stalk on earth a quill

And every man a scribe by trade

To write the love of God above

Would drain the ocean dry

Nor could the scroll contain the whole

Though stretched from sky to sky

I will not be defeated.
Keep my eyes focused on the right thing.
Be self-controlled and alert because the time is near.
Be strong!

Happy Birthday Boys!

I can't really recognize who is who....?

Art By Tim

Don't know what happened to Tim who has been cooking good food... not just look good but.. taste wonderful.... I can't help to take the pictures of them...

your sweet love...

Why I stay here? Because it's a safe place..even it doesn't seem like sometimes but I know it's the place for me. No matter what happen, I will keep myself here and wait for the next door open.

You pick me up when I fall
You wipe my tear when I cry
You comfort me when I need
You come to me when I walk away
Your love never fail
I don't know why you so love me even I 'm not worth it
But I do know your will never change your love for me
Even I hurt you or leave you
You always there for me
Because you are who you are
You know every part of my thought

I can't stop thinking your sweet love to me

Don't let the world to steal your joy and peace!

Since I came back from HK....I have been planning and doing so many things. CCM, CG, shepherding, tidy the house, catch up with friends... and of course my course. I'm doing 3D animation and actually it 's not that hard though.. I think the drawing part just scared me off. I love the teacher who really helpful and passionate about what she is doing. Yeah.. Passion!! We all need certain level of passion to drive us to do not give up the work or dream we want to achieve. This semester is the best semester i think... I 'm starting my little dream here.."to have my own company". sounds good yeah!!?? It's gonna be like E-commerce and selling accessories online.. girl's stuffs.. earrings, rings and hair clips...etc...I want to call it " joy chan"... I love the word "joy" properly can represent my character hehe. then Chan is my surename...joy chan...do you like it?

Even I 'm very ambitious about achieving what I want for myself, this verse always come into my mind whenever I feel "high"...

"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?" Matthew 16:26

It's a very beautiful verse and really help me to maintain the focus. What if I have the world but forfeit my soul? What if i lose my soul and yet gain the world? I don't want myself to become like that and I know I will regret if I do. However, I need God to help me to maintain the balance. And I deeply understand the things in this world are weird and strange. The world yet can give me what I want but it also can steal my true joy and peace from the Lord. I need to be alert to myself that I can't walk away from God. Sometimes I will just sit down and think: "What if I didn't meet Jesus in my life? What would I be doing then?"... I think I will still be Kam.. a normal girl who wants to marry and have a good family and that's it??hehe.... Now God has given me a bigger dream... a dream that it seems so hard to achieve but yet actually He is preparing me now. I have found the true joy in the world.. and that's only from God. Trust me! I'm telling the truth!

I will not allow anyone to steal the joy and peace in my heart. I will guard my heart because it is the wellspring of life. I will protect my city so that when enemy comes, I will still be able to stand firm and please God.

Once again...I gaze at the cross and amazed by His great love to me. Nothing is greater than His unconditional love. I'm really a blessed child who lives in the presence of God forever and ever.

I always think.. howcome some people just keep complain about certain things?? We even don't have enough time to appreciate God's creation!!!! We don't even have enough words to praise God's character. People.. stop complaining and turn all your words to Praise our Lord and Father... You will truely experience the great joy and peace in your heart and THAT LASTS FOREVER...

CCM Hawaiian Nite

Praise God for the great time we had on the Hawaiian Nite... Thank you for all of you who made it happened. It was a great time for me to learn how to organise such big event... and also thanks for your understanding.... of my forgetfulness..all the timely reminder.

I think I was too nevous and I experience a "blank" moment in my mind that I become speechless before Cindy's testimony time...haah.. yeah! Totally blank because I lost my paper...I just kept smiling and smiling

Once again....Thanks from my heart...

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